painfully happy

This is the most not productive day >_< or cleaning the house and washing clothes are considered productive?  At this moment, i don’t really think so.. As i should finished all those HAVE-TO-DO list.. submit the-already-late paper, urgent portfolio submission, behind-time-packaging design, promised-to be sent-last week idea, and etc i couldn’t even remember.. and *still* am here writing a blog. *hey girl, r u out of ur mind?*

T_T but i couldn’t think about anything now.. just keeping myself busy with a useful physical stuff like cleaning and washing.. keep wondering why the world is so big.. why ocean could separate me from home.. what i should do after graduate.. where i should go?

I want to put my heart into exercise.. been thinking about scary game like roller coaster and stuff.. the scarier the better.. soo that my heart will beat faster.. maybe after that, i could decide easier :p haha.. is it possible? anyway, we plan to go to disneyland soon..can’t wait for it.. will meet my stitch there ♥‿♥

Oya.. i’ve been falling in love with one book recently ♥ called architectural space.. well, guess i did read a lot of stuff since i came here.. more than before.. and i’m happy with that 😀

Let say, am painfully happy right now ♡
See u later blog~ xx

miz

mungkin ak lg bener2 mellow hr ini..
capek, takut, kuatir, hepi, semangat, sedi..campur jadi satu..

entah kenapa tiba2 inget satu ayat yang bilang
klo yang terutama di hidup itu kasih..
entah kenapa…mlm ini ak ngerasa ayat itu bener bgt..
kayakny semua udah ga menarik lagi buat ak..
asal bisa deket ma org2 yg sayang aileen..dan sayang balik ma mereka..
kayaknya itu more than enough..
papa, mama..ndrew..bet…i need u all….miz home so bad T_T

stupid me

never once i feel so stupidly hopeless..
foolishly flows useless drops..
and having a pointless anxiety..

keep saying to me
just need to work a bit harder and it will be ok
but it doesn’t really help though..

keep ensuring me to ask for help
not to afraid that i will bother people
but i don’t think i can do it though..

i can run away but i can’t hide…argh!
i want to go home…………..

…

if the hero never comes,

maybe i just need to be

my own

hero.

art or design

Good art is a talent
Good design is a skill

Good art inspires
Good design motivates

Good art is interpreted
Good design is understood

Good art is a taste
Good design is an opinion

Good art sends a different message to everyone
Good design sends the same message to everyone

Art evokes emotion
Design communicates

🙂

mmm…
can i combine them both…?

wonder

i wonder..
will he wonder what i wonder