Transformation..

Even me, i cant believe what I have becoming to..

inget2 dulu.. sejak SD, nilai rapot yang paling jelek selalu.. OLAHRAGA -_-”. Gimana ga jelek, sit up aja, ak ga bisa. Lucu si kalau inget-inget lagi.. my wish for birthday were just as simple as..
“ak pingin waktu basket, shootku at least sentuh ring -_-” ga gitu malu……”
“ak pingin bisa sit up.. masa setiap sit up, kalau ga dibantu badan melengkung ak ga bisa bangun?”
or.. how i feel like
the teacher wants to kill me.. waktu ak disuru loncat harimau >_<
gimana ngga… ak sukses cium matrasny in a hard hard way…..

and now… TARAAAA
ak bisa sit up 4 set! thanks to my personal trainer!
seminggu tiga kali gym date tyt works!
ak ngerasa sehat ini pertama kaliny ak looking forward every sport time.
masi banyak lemak disana sini..
tapi katanya 2-3 bulan lagi and i can see the major result
and the weirdest is… i do all the torture from my pt with a big big smile.

bukan kurusin diri, tapi untuk shaping
soalnya ak tau ak ini bungkuk.. inget tegak cuma bentar, trus bungkuk lagi..
walopun ak ini kurus, tapi perutku… paha dan lengan kiyur kiyur -_-”
ok i should stop jelek2in diri sendiri..
it improves slightly now :”) *proud*

next next next..
i start to fall in love in cooking and baking
below is my latest creation in cooking

Lemon Grilled Chicken

for baking.. the latest one is macarons! cant believe i did it!
bentuknya memang masih belom pretty.. tapi my macarons has feet ^^ nanti coba lagi.. harus banyak latian spuit…

green tea macarons

dan kalau mau dipikir lagi….
it’s for him……
i have a very very strong strength i dont know where it comes from
i want to give him what money cant buy..
i know i can always make him happy, he loves me the way i am..
but i want him to have a girl with a perfect body
a woman who can make sure he has a delicious healthy meal everyday
a lady with a lady like attitude..
*learning about wine now.. *

yes, it started by doing it for him,
but as it is going, i feel like i owe him for making me like this.
i feel more confidence as i love myself more.

i never love someone till i want to give him beyond best of me..
till i want to go to the very basic.
i was always proud of myself.. and maybe a bit snob sometimes..

i never feel so high and so low at the same time..
he makes me understand the balance of life

the same balance as
am God’s Princess that can have anything, can do everything.
but who am I?
am no more than a microscopic infinitesimal dust
am nothing..compare to my Mighty Super God.

letter from the universe

What if,
you’re already doing everything right,
even though you’re not sure?

And the surprises along the way
have only sped things up,
even though it felt like
they slowed you down?

And all that you want
is now barreling towards you,
even though you can’t see it?

And when it arrives
it’ll exceed your every expectation,
even though your dreams were huge?

Wouldn’t you be making
some really weird noises about now?
Whoohoo’ing…
Howling…
maybe even
Whoohoo-howl-barking?

Well?

The Universe
 

ps: thank you God, for a huge inspiration boost today
pss: if your dreams dont scare you, it’s not big enough.

HIM and him

Mode : bahasa campur-campur

Balik ke Desember 2011,
Aku ngerasa clueless, future looked so blur, bingung terus setiap hari, merasa serba salah harus pilih persimpangan yang mana. Feel so empty somehow.. Then i made a very radical decision, lets just throw away all the opportunity i have, i don’t want it all.. Cuma gara-gara baca quote.. “When you get lost, you will find yourself”  I chose to go away and to get lost, from E V E R Y O N E who knows me. Quit ngajar, quit semua, even quit being a designer, bye bye all the relationship burden.. Let’s go to somewhere abroad! (yang mgkn cm HK dengan alesan kerja ) padahal disana juga semua kerjaan kutolak, juga ga kabari temen-temen disana klo ak kesana Pinginnya meditasi ala Eat Pray Love.. ngejauh dari semua orang yang kenal aku.. hehehehe.. Pingin diskusi pribadi ama Tuhan… protes.. tanya.. dan minta penjelasan.. ak harus gimana ini…

So anyway, kadang-kadang, GOD itu nyebelin.. HE is selalu nyebelin.. -_-”… Di saat ak sudah siap untuk kehilangan semuanya.. Just one day before it happened.. while i was saying bye bye.. HE gave me a really really big surprise.
Seeeeeee… how HE loves to cut things really close..

A surprise that literally changed me.. complete me.. and mostly enlighten me
And since then, i feel like am the luckiest, richest girl ever..

Till now.. am still asking HIM..
how can i thank HIM for him?

It has been days.. when awake is so so much better than sleeping..
when everyday.. ak yang males selalu jadi putri kesiangan..
selalu so excited dengerin wekerku tiap pagi
always cant wait to greet HIM and him good morning

love you my KING and my prince ♥
hello future am ready to rock you!

ps: from this i learn that..
sometimes, God wants me to let go things..
strip myself to nothing..
and i just have to trust HIM
cause nothing means nothing as long as i have HIM, The Everything!